A while back, I posted this post with tears in my eyes. And now it's been two months since I moved back. To be honest I thought I'd miss England more than I have, but then again, I'm keeping myself busy so I don't actually have time to think about it too much. That was until a few nights back when I looked at my pictures and videos from my time in England, and I remembered how it was to be with my hostkids, to walk around in Berkhamsted and go on crazy adventures with my friends. And I got really homesick, I started thinking 'when am I going back home', until I remembered, I'm not. I've spoken to my friends who are still there, how quiet and boring it's gotten there, but still I'm dreaming about going back. I haven't had the best two months back in Finland, so I don't know if I just want to run away again, or if I truly want to move back to England. I want to have a life at just one place, instead of going back and forth for four years now, I want to settle down, and the truth is I don't think I want to do it in Finland, but I'm too scared to do it anywhere else right now.
And what's breaking my heart every day is also the fact that I miss my friends more than anything, I've never met more amazing people in my life. It's weird how someone who you are almost forced to spend time with, all of a sudden becomes the best thing in your life.
ps. did you notice there is a new page on my blog if you just want to read my posts from when I was an au pair? just check under the banner next to 'about me'.